Scarred by the battle not won
Yet fought everyday by everyone
Lifted down to my own endeavors
Falling into hell forever
Gaining grip is harder than ever before
Taking a bird that can no longer soar
Falling down into the depth of despair
Lived once but couldn't care
Didn't care for a second chance
Waiting for my devil to dance
Eating my soul day by day
Every cloud becoming more and more grey
Oh how I wish I could stay
Lifted upon the heart of mine
Ripping it apart like interior design
Gained the structure of who I am
Bursting the walls of my dam
Welcome to the after party
Am I in heaven or hell
But I can't really tell
With the glimpse of both
I feel my soul decay instead of growth
Wear and tear from another day
Leaving my happiness at bay
What could I say?
To see another day?
Feel my heart turn into fray!
Molded and sculpted into clay
Head first diving into hell
Ignore the warning, ignoring the bell
Muscled by the pain
Knowing the blood I can't regain
Oh how I know I won't be the same.
Let me play my game
And you can play yours
Feel my story like a world tour
Every dent in me becoming sore.
Feel it can you. Feel it will you?
As I become a monster splitting in two.
Oh how it feels
Against my skin
A glimpse of my reflection of where I've been
Here I enter heaven. Living with the biggest sin.
Waiting for my death sentence to begin.
Welcome to the lions den.
Because this is my life of what I knew then.